The Most Difficult Year of My Life

It has been the most difficult year of my life. Keith was killed one year ago today. There hasn’t been a day that I haven’t thought, “how could this be”? Of course it will get easier and I have faith that I will see and be with Keith for eternity some day but that doesn’t make the pain disappear. Our family has gone through the typical struggles, mom and dad have had it the worst I believe. I pray for them every day that they will see the need to continue on for the rest of the family because it would be so easy to just give up, two of their three children have been taken from them in tragedy. I can’t imagine that pain and I pray that I never have to experience it.

I really can’t explain how much Keith’s death has changed my life and the lives of those who knew him. It has been difficult for me because depression has set in numerous times over the last year and that is difficult in the midst of raising 2 little kids, starting a church, and just leading a busy life. We have seen it affect Samuel our 3-year-old, he has heard so many people say Keith is with Jesus that he didn’t like Jesus for about a year, he is better now. My mom and dad again have struggled the most and my heart breaks for them.

I and the family appreciate all of the prayers and well wishes that have come our way, if it weren’t for our family and friends we would have been lost. God has blessed us in the midst of the pain and trial and He is faithful. When I can;t see His hand I trust His heart.

I love my brother with all of my heart and I long for the day I get to see him again but until then I will relish the memories I have of the great times, the great life we shared and I will tell others where I find hope.

Ronnie